another roller coaster week, what people said its true srsly it jus doesnt pay off cuz in the end, ur jus gonna get screwed even more
by people who is seemingly oblivious to their retarded acts people that i asked myself why are they what they are now? den i starts to qns the selection process, criteria etc etc and goes down the list.
but i realize, the problem is with the whole fucking organisation itself full of motherfuckers that only know how to put up a pretence so mind yourself you motherfuckers, watch your back carefully.
Tuesday, November 11, 2008
; 4:59 PM
New Photos! ^^
slightly overexpose, but i think it gives a nice feel to the foto.
this foto actually should be horizontal but don't know why become like that blurry but i like the feel to it. Model is my sister: Jing Fang ^^
the melancholy behind the laughter
; 4:15 PM
faints! i realise all my stuff have this bad habit of gng kaboom altogether my psp, speaker, earphones , laptop etcetc all at the same time!!!! zzz
it will srsly cost me a bomb replacing all the items lucky i got my uncle to fix my psp and i fix the speaker myself. but the earphones and laptop... zzz laptop is ok cuz i dun use it anymore, my bro does.
hahah! was on a long wkend this week cuz i had taken 2 days off but unfortunately i was sick, thx to Terence Heng. in the end i couldn't have enough time to do all the stuff i wanted to do dere're still alot of things to be done. >.<
i tink i have to wait till december after most of the ppl's 21st bdae have ended den i start using my precious wkends to clear up the rest. i jus submitted my request to change my degree programme in SMU, SIS to Econs. hope that it will go tru and my decision will prove to be right in the long run
in a blink, a year have pass by just lidat. its time to always look back and see what have 1 achieve for the past yr and setting new goals for the coming new year. life is all about moving on and going through changes
and i can already feel it, with most of my friends getting attached. furthering their studies and making new friends etcetc. it feels as if im still staying in the past. i wonder why this transition into adult life is so hard and different
i don't like this feeling a feeling of being left behind... time to pack my emotions and feelings' and get ready to move on! ^^
Saturday, September 20, 2008
; 11:34 PM
hurhur~ i realize i've been keeping alot to myself nowadays though i'm not quite sure of the reason why? people say that i've becoming quite weird. it's because they don't understand me.
i initially thought that it's because that i'm becoming authistic. but now i tink maybe it's because those who i used to talk alot to, were leaving me, too busy with their life or not talking to me for some reason. T.T
losing those who i can talk to, i can only turn to books and doing other stuff to enrich my life as i'm stuck in national service, and NS only have guys, boring guys -.-'''
but doing that make me realise that i'm quite bad at sports. -.-''' everyone around me seem to have a sport that dey are good at and i suck at almost everything. ZZZZ basketball, soccer, table tennis, swimming etc.
thus~ i decided that i'm going to practise table tennis & swimming table tennis not because of the olympic fever i jus think that it's a delicate game that require speed and precision and i tink it suits my character. XD
swimming because i love diving and i dont wanna drown in times of equipment failure so to those who think that i've becoming rather weird, authistic blablabla hope that i've answer your question. tata!
weeet! the whole freaking course is about to come to an end! XD now thinking back, this 3 months had really come a long way. the physical & mental torment that i have been through... *shudders* now i'm finally at the end of the tunnel but i have yet to see the light of it. hmmm. lets see how things go. arghs! and i'm quite surprise at myself. i've been staying at home this few weekends like a 宅男. T.T i totally have no intention to venture out at all, just wanna stay at home and rot. >.< die le. if things go like this i will turn myself into a typical PATHETIC army boy!!! ARGHSSS howwww~~~~ ehhH! oh ya! Diablo 3 is coming out soon as announce ytd! watched the gameplay trailer and omg!!! i'm so gonna get myself a new com when this game is out. wahahaha!
P.S: this post have been rather random and boring, but please excuse my tomfoolery. This is the me now. XD
just finished playing the game Final Fantasy VII: Crisis Core during my confinement yesterday. god, i must say Square Enix is really good at making great stories that makes people wanting to cry like a baby. >.< it's even more amazing that they have this idea of slowly bringing the death of Zack into the last few battle encounters where the battle controls became sluggish and flashback of various important characters from the Digital Mind Wave became foggy. i swear i almost wanted to cry when the DMV shows how hard Zack is trying hard to focus on the memories of Aerith and him despite his life is slowly fading away. thus, even though the game battle system is boring i still must say that this is a great beautiful game that really touched my heart. hmmm and ya! 1 more week to go before the whole damn freaking course ends tough week ahead. hope i can survive it. >.<
Loveless Poem
Prologue (Poem) When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end The goddess descends from the sky Wings of light and dark spread afar She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting
Prologue (Interpreted) When the war of the beasts brings about the world’s end The goddess descends from the sky
Wings of light and dark spread afar She guides us to bliss, her gift everlasting
Act I (Poem) Infinite in mystery is the gift of the goddess We seek it thus, and take it to the sky Ripples form on the water’s surface The wandering soul knows no rest.
Act I (Interpreted) The infinite mystery The gift of the goddess is what the three men seek But their fates are scattered by war
One becomes a hero, one wanders the land And the last is taken prisoner
But the three are still bound by a solemn oath To seek the answer together, once again
Act II (Poem) There is no hate, only joy For you are beloved by the goddess Hero of the dawn, Healer of worlds
Dreams of the morrow hath the shattered soul Pride is lost Wings stripped away, the end is nigh
Act II (Interpreted) Though the prisoner escapes, he is gravely wounded His life is saved, however By a woman of the opposing nation
He begins a life of seclusion with her Which seems to hold the promise of eternal bliss
But as happiness grows, so does guilt Of not fulfilling the oath to his friends
Act III (Poem) My friend, do you fly away now? To a world that abhors you and I? All that awaits you is a somber morrow No matter where the winds may blow
My friend, your desire Is the bringer of life, the gift of the goddess
Even if the morrow is barren of promises Nothing shall forestall my return
Act III (Interpreted) As the war sends the world hurtling towards destruction The prisoner departs with his newfound love And embarks on a new journey
He is guided by hope that the gift will bring bliss And the oath that he swore to his friends
Though no oath is shared between the lovers In their hearts they know they will meet again
Act IV (Poem) My friend, the fates are cruel There are no dreams, no honor remains The arrow has left the bow of the goddess
My soul, corrupted by vengeance Hath endured torment, to find the end of the journey In my own salvation And your eternal slumber
Legend shall speak Of sacrifice at world’s end The wind sails over the water’s surface Quietly, but surely
Act V (Poem) Even if the morrow is barren of promises Nothing shall forestall my return To become the dew that quenches the land To spare the sands, the seas, the skies I offer thee this silent sacrifice
arGH~!! came back from camp, and the first thing i saw on the computer desk was a letter of application for a 5-room HDB Flat. and the name belongs to none other than my bro. XDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXDXD T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T.T this was the dual kind of feeling i get at that split second. happy as im finally gonna have the room ALL BY MYSELF!!!! huUUURAAAAAAAAAAAAYYYYYYYYYYYYy! XD .... however after awhile i can't believe that im actually feeling quite sad that he is gonna move out and time of us spending tog is probably gonna get lesser. sounds kinda gay! XD come to think of it, our r/s only slightly gets better these 2 years. maybe its due to me becoming more mature and somehow, value family ties more. we used to fight and quarrel all the time, thats becuz he's a fuckup brother. xD till now i still think he is quite fuckup. lols~ but... i'm going to take quite some time getting used to having the room to myself. OH. and i jus rmb one thing, if he's moving away that means i cant get to drive his car often liao. arghhh! hope that he will leave his car behind for me since he is going to get a new lancer. ^^ but no. i dont think he will do thast. T.T
